On Wednesday I’ll be doing more filming to get your guys lots more videos! I’m excited because I’ll know what to expect a bit more, and I’m determined to give a better blow job than last time… However I’m also planning on doing my first b/g video and that’s gotten me super nervous.
Nervous excited of course. Like the blow job, it’s been a while since I’ve had sex. I’m not going to admit when was the last time, you’ll laugh at me! I think it could be a repeat of the blow job video, where I just laugh a lot and end up getting instructions from a third party. Well, maybe. Maybe I’ll be over taken by lust and forget there’s a camera rolling at all!
For extra measure though I’ve been researching (read that as watching a lot of porn) and although I can’t do fancy moves, I am excited to see myself on screen. Does that make me a narcissist? Or just voyeuristic? I have this sort of competition feeling towards the girls I watch in the videos, like I want to do just as well. But to do that just means to have better orgasms right?
I’m not sure. I’m very nervous. I’m sort of shaking with excitement. Maybe it’s just been too long since I’ve last had sex. Small steps first. Like try not to be intimidated by the penis. Try not to laugh at the penis. Men get kind of funny when I do that, and I have to explain it’s not their penis that’s making me laugh, it’s just penises in general. Then I have to explain the whole “I wanted to be a lesbian but I enjoy hetro sex too much” and then we just end up bringing another girl into the show to prove that and maybe the filming will escalate…
Oh I’m thinking too much into it now! It’s not for another two days. The most exciting part is actually the location, and I’ve got a 60s style dress all ready. In fact, I think there’s a photo of it on my Washington blog!