I had planned to film some new video content this week, but that was before the whole appendicitis incident! On my “want to do” list included filming a proper b/g anal sex video, which even at 100% I would have been nervous about. I’m not sure if I’ll be able to do it, but a part of me is really excited to try.
My experiences with anal so far have been using my small beginner’s buttplug, my fingers and only fairly recently an actual penis a couple of times. Anal sex is very different from normal sex, to me it feels more intense and I have to be very calm and relaxed to do it. I do enjoy it though, there’s a sense of thrill that it’s something almost taboo! Plus, once I get into it, it’s a very different sort of pleasure.
With anal sex, you have to go very slowly. Before, when I watched porn videos and stuff, it always looked really rough and hardcore. However no one starts like that! See, even those “First Time” videos I’ve watched always seemed somewhat brutal, so I knew if I were to do one it wouldn’t be like that at all. Instead we would have to be very slow and gentle. I think it’s all about practice. I’ve been debating whether or not I should wait for that practice in my own time, playing with myself to get used to the feeling and helping my bum get used to feeling a bit more stretched out. I thought however it would be nice to have a video where I’m still quiet new to it.
Because I definitely enjoy it. In fact, I wish I was able to take more! It’s frustrating being so impatient! But I thought it would be nice to have a video that really shows what being new to anal is like, so that maybe other people know that it’s not just about shoving it all in wham bam style! I’ve got it in my head that it’ll be a fun challenge to myself, and I’d feel really proud afterwards.
Then I thought though, maybe the reason why there aren’t many videos like that is because people don’t want to watch that sort of anal sex? Maybe people only like the hardcore stuff? So it would be a bad idea to try. I won’t know until I do though. I want to.
That being said, my body is still sore from the hospital. Anal sex has to be gentle at the best of times, and maybe my body isn’t ready for that sort of intense activity yet. I’m kind of nervous, which means despite all my worrying and debating I wont’ have a choice anyway.
I’m going to try tomorrow however, and if it works and looks ok I’ll upload it. If it doesn’t, you guys will still get lots of hot new videos anyway! Win-win!